its 2.40 in the morning
my mind was swirling with thoughts and I cant turn in
i dont want to waste my precious time being in my home
home's the best to be honest
you wont feel it unless you're abroad alone for a couple of months

unexpected things had been happening this holiday
i dont like it and i dont want it
i want everything to be smooth
i want happiness
i want a teenage life
i want a normal life with a normal relationship
i want you

days seems to be harder and harder and seriously this sucks.
sometimes im wondering if im normal or retarded
i used to hate myself
i used to detest myself
i used to disdain myself
but
you gave me hope
you gave me strength
you encourage me
you are emotionally there for me
you support me
you care for me
you gave me a different perspective towards life
you gave me self-confidence
you gave me a chance to project myself
you gave me a chance to concern
you gave me a chance to love you

I know people have been wondering why all my posts are about her and relationships because there's really nothing to talk about my life in SG. It's dead bored and routine. I dont think people will bother to read.
I really love her. She's part of my life already. Everyday I'm trying my best to pull our distance nearer and nearer, try to make the whole thing go smoother but sometimes things just dont go well.
Though it's sometimes hard but I'll still continue to do my very best,play my best part =)
She's my everything : D

This is kinda a dead blog but I dont mind. Blogging really releases stress and gives me an imaginary stage for me to express my views and feelings. It's fun though :)


I always have faith in you and I always trust you even though we are far apart. There has never been a day that I dont miss you. You may say I'm very long-winded but who cares? This is me! I care and concern about you very much. My biggest wish in my life is to be with you everyday..
I'm not acting naive,I'm serious.

Sorry for being a nuisance
Sorry for being childish
Sorry for things that I've done wrong and things that I've said that made you sad
Sorry for unable to accompany you in contact everyday
Sorry for unable to be by your side when you need me
Sorry for everything that I've done wrong

Sometimes I wonder whether I'm really good for her or Do I really suit her?
I dont want to leave her but I dont want to make it hard for her.
Such contradiction is a pain in my ass.

Anyway, I'm leaving tomorrow, back to the ass place.

This holiday I have been meeting her almost everyday
I'm gonna miss her much :(
Take care Drink more water ;)
My heart will always be with you no matter how far we are
I love You, as always =)